People always think that their opinions have a place in my life. I know that I complain a lot about how people's words affect me, but I have become used to it. People always tell me about how much of a shitbag I am, but I would rather have no friends and not lie to anyone than be a huge liar and have a bunch of fake friends.
All of my "friends" have done things they said that we wouldn't do, like go to parties, drink, smoke, be promiscuous, etc. And somehow, I am the asshole and the bad person for staying clean and telling people the truth. I am not just going to sit by and watch people destroy themselves and just "support them" no matter what. I think that if you ask my opinion and you are not going down a path that is beneficial, I will say so. Also, I should be able to defend myself without being thought a bitch.
There are so many people in my life that are rude and lie to one another, and I just think it takes an awful lot of energy and maintenance. And then when I tell the truth, I am still not believed. Whatever I guess. I can't be friendless forever. Someday I will find people that would like to be my friend because they know that I will not lie to them, and that we won't have to watch what we say because we trust each other.
All the people that have left my life have left it for a reason, and even though I am bored and lonely, I would rather stay home and veg than go pretend to care about stuff I don't care about, and about people I don't care about. They act like it is my loss, but really it is a weight lifted off my shoulders. Good riddance.
And last but not least, I am going to make sure from now on, I try to be a bit more positive and less complainy. Nobody likes to hear people bitch. Love you bye!
